Where the hell did I go?

It’s been MIN-UTE!  Well, maybe like a year and well it’s been a pretty interesting year.

As are the years, of all regular oxygen breathing people besides me.  But my blog, so yeah.   The main reason I really left this Popsicle stand was that I felt everything I said was pointless, inconsequential and really didn’t matter to you…or anyone else.  I took a lot of time thinking about if writing was to even be a part of my life and had essentially quit doing it altogether.

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How I felt then.

At the time, I’d been going through a difficult period in work and home life.  Then I applied to a gaming website, as a contributor.  Which was swiftly rejected, I distinctly remember the editor saying “my writing was unprofessional and not what they were looking for”, despite the posting for “amateur” work.  The more I wrote, the emptier I felt with each posting.  Other blogs or sites were thriving and well…I was nothing but a grain of sand in the Sahara.

Once my writing no longer gave me joy.  I left here.

I had life push me along like dust from a sandstorm.  I moved through my days doing the regular grind, mindlessly working, being the best dad and husband I could be.  Hell, I even went to Disney World for the first time!

Then the epiphany with a beating heart happened.  I found out I was having a son.  Forget the “mind blown” thought.  It was no longer going to be Three’s Company; my boy (his name is Max, BTW) was now going to be Mr Furley walking in during an awkward moment of eye-brow raising innuendos.  The first thing wasn’t “wow, that’s great!”  It was “OH SHIT!”

Honestly, we NEVER saw this coming.  BOTH Kat (my wife, if I’d never mentioned her name directly on here.) and I had not seen this coming.   Not because, that’s just what careless, albeit perfectly normal sex bring in, as a result.  But that we’d been trying for FOUR YEARS and almost TWO years after having a miscarriage.

Before, we’d had him, (FYI he’s a super cute, yet dribbling 3 month old) our chances of having him were pretty slim.  Me and Kat were seeing a fertility specialist, as we’d both been having issues conceiving.  Put simply, my flamethrower couldn’t light her newspaper-filled dumpster.

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Around the third year, which was about the time I decided to hang my hat with you guys.  I became frustrated with my weight, eating habits and activity levels.  I stopped drinking sodas, laid off the sugar, took supplement stacks, chugged a gallon of water a day and kept to it for 4 months straight.  Also, I was on Clomid, AKA baby glue, so maybe that helped the football team make to the end-zone.

Once it happened, our total mood took a turn for the better.  Kat and my depressive state flipped faster than a Mickey Ds burger.  (Provided they are even flipped in the first place.)

She went from being in constant state of lull into a kid waiting for Christmas toys.  Losing a baby before birth, is very different from losing a person already here on this Earth.      Men can only sympathize, but never empathize with that sort of lost.  My advice to all those fellas out there that ever find themselves in this sort situation:  Comfort her, never counsel or coach.  Let time do the work and allow her to find peace in herself.

Thankfully, things have been much better for me.  I’ve reinvigorated my desire to write and share my thoughts with everyone!

Thank you for sticking around guys!

Photo creds:  Cheezburger.com

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Prepping up for holidays! Part 1

Yeah, yeah, its not even past Halloween and I’m talkin’ Christmas right?!  No one wants to hear about the long-ass lines to see Santa/Black Friday/parking/food/decorations/slash (lol!), do Christmas cards or deal with the family events.  But if you’ve got little ones, getting your shopping (or a planned out lay-away) over time is the way to go.

Personally, Louie and I went to Toys R Us and got it locked down last week.  Frankly, its a good strategy if you haven’t done it before and really doesn’t cut a hole in your wallet/purse.  That and we dodge all of the BS, while still ACTUALLY DOING the shopping.  Sure, I could do everything online and get a sweet deal.  But it just doesn’t feel the same.  Actually doing the legwork for me, seems to have a weird sense of self accomplishment to it.  Go figure on that one.

I know, ZERO care factor from ya’ll!

Overall, Grace is getting a pretty nice haul for her presents from us.  Most notably, she’s getting a 2DS with a few Mario games.  (With me quietly getting Smash Bros for it!)  🙂  Right now, I do feel she’s pretty young for it, but it seems that she gets on the phone a bit and plays Mario Run too much, along with the usual My Little Pony and Learning games.  But that is where we’re putting a limit on our mobile/gaming time to rainy/cold days, when we need a break or half hour here or there.

As of now, we’ve been pretty light on enforcement with the rule.  But I’d rather she spend her childhood outside, doing activities and less gaming/phone time.  Hopefully it will turn out that way, as I’ve always been a good balance of outgoing and a homebody.

But I really didn’t get any inspiration to write anything down about making a list until I read about the upcoming Wolfenstein: The New Colossus.  Which is one of my must-plays for the upcoming year.  For those that haven’t been following any of the upcoming titles, I’ll give a few bits about them.

1)      Wolfenstein: The New Colossus

If you grew up playing PC games, there is NO WAY you’ve never heard of Wolfenstein 3D.

It was the game that started the First Person Shooter (AKA FPS games) genre and got its reputation for its kill all Nazis gameplay.  The New Colossus is a direct sequel to both Wolfenstein: The New Order and The Old Blood.  (I know, confusing.  The latter is a DLC expansion that is just as good.)

What’s so special?    –  Well, The New Order is a phenomenal game that plays very simplistic.  With its single player only, story driven, shootfest that gives you the option to go stealth until the shit hits the fan.  Its gameplay barely penalizes you for just doing a kill em’ all type of run-through.  It plays just like it used to, when it came out way back in the 90s but runs smooth and combat is tense and satisfying.  That and the story is great take on an alternate-reality of the World War II.

The New Colossus is a clear continuation of that story and gameplay.

This isn’t Call of Duty, I assure of that!

Why am I excited?  –  The new setting and how the events changed things that happened from the previous entry.  It has a brand-new engine by Id Software, which is known for making some powerful engines that rival Unreal and Crytech.  (Which are what MANY of the games we play, run on.  In case you didn’t know.)

That and killing Nazis in Wolfenstein is way better than CoD:  Zombies, without question.

Also, I enjoy a truly mature gaming experience.  Which is where the title has no censorship, the violence, gore and nudity/sex is used correctly and not forced or thrown on a canvas like a trashy painting.  Wolfenstein did that.

Release Date October 27th

2)     The Evil Within 2

The sequel to the former director/creator of Resident Evil, Shinji Mikami.  The Evil Within was a pretty frightening game to experience.  Although it seemed to rely way too much on the mechanics of one of his older titles:  Resident Evil 4.  Which is a classic survival horror game, but most people saw TEW as a clone.  In response to that, The Evil Within was a GOOD CLONE gameplay wise, that did have its moments where you had more bullets than the enemies you were fighting.  But had MANY twisted, tripy and frightening moments.  The first game made me feel tense and on edge throughout my first playthrough.

What’s so special?  –  The first game left a lot more questions than answers, which wasn’t necessarily a bad thing.  It just left everyone that enjoyed or cared about the story, with a big fat, SO WHAT’S NEXT?!  Most likely, survival horror fans will pick this up, especially if Resident Evil 7’s move to 1st person didn’t sit well with you.  Which was a solid and well executed move for that series.  The Evil Within plays like Resident Evil 4, except on acid.  So you’re in for a wild ride!  It’s release is THIS FRIDAY THE 13th, so it’ll be a no-brainer for a great Halloween title.

Why am I excited?  – Years back, Shinji Mikami made a claim, that he was, “going to bring survival horror, back to its roots”.  Personally, he didn’t really do that in the first game.  Hopefully, he pulls this off and the second one is a phenomenal experience and succeeds on the market!

3)  Star Wars Battlefront II 

Two years ago, DICE released the first Battlefront and the gaming community went apeshit in the WRONG WAY!  Sure, it was DICE’s Battlefield sort of gameplay with everything done up in a beautiful Star Wars fashion.  But a large majority of its gameplay was focused on the multiplayer aspect.  Which is great and all for a military shooter, but this is STAR WARS we’re talking about here!

Seriously, where the HELL was this in the game?! Oh wait, it wasn’t.

The fan base for the series is MASSIVE with only Trekkies and comic fans being the only groups to rival that demand!  So they completely failed in catering to casual gamers that just wanted to boot it up and play a story/reenactment of the series.  That, and it lacked in content or was paid DLC.  (Albiet pretty good DLC)

I’ll admit, there was a lot that was done right about the game, too.  Walker Assualt was pretty cool and the Death Star DLC is pretty badass.  All of the content that was present was faithful and true to the series.  Space and X-Wing/Tie Fighter dogfights were a blast! (Pun intented.)  Battlefront II is set to surpass this in spades and remain true to fans of both shooters and the Star Wars series.

What’s so special?  –  Well it’s Star Wars, with plenty of vehicles, blasters and gadgets to use.  Also, it’s going to be a clear improvement over its predecessor.  Not only will it cover ALL three Star Wars generations, (prequel, original and sequel) it will feature a new story campaign that will cover the period between Episode VI (Return of the Jedi) and VII (The Force Awakens) using an original character.

Yesterday, I sunk my teeth into the Multiplayer Beta.  From what I saw, it looks to be a solid improvement.  The content has been TRIPLED and it seems that EA/DICE is doing away with paid DLC for this.  (SOURCE)  All of this covered by a teaser video featuring John Boyega (AKA Finn)

Why am I excited?  –  The beta is kinda making me a Day 1, which is NEVER what I do.  But this may be the Star Wars/Battlefield experience I was looking for in the first!  I’ve been a Battlefield veteran since Bad Company and Battlefront 1 was the only DICE title to let me down.  (But the DLC did make the game better!)  It comes out November 17th

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MORE TO COME ON PART 2

 

 

Soup Rockets!!

Hey everyone!  Been a bit, but everything is going well.  Over the last month or so, I’ve spent some serious quality time with the lady and Grace!  Things have been pretty chill, so I can’t complain.  Louie has gotten most of her gardening out of the way and the little one is almost done school.  (Can’t believe she’s almost into Kindergarten!)

During the break, I noticed that Grace (the lil one) has been more and more interested in gaming.  First, it started with me and her playing Super Mario 64, Pokemon Snap! and Mario Kart.  Now she’s been asking for more time on my PS4, with Louie helping her out with Nom Nom Galaxy.  Which is an indie game, where you explore a planet in order to make soup!  Currently, that is her favorite and I can’t blame her.

Just so you know, Grace.  This is the only place daddy will allow you to hold a circular saw!  Oh, that and launching rockets in the house.

I mean, how many kids get the chance to make soup in outer space and ship it off in a rocket to other aliens?!

Now, for a long time, I was a bit apprehensive about her playing, despite me being a serious gamer.  But I soon realized over this month, that was an inevitability or I had to quit gaming altogether.  After all, our children always want to be just like us and are our direct reflection of ourselves.

Funny enough, though!  I think she’s been playing for little too much in recent days and needs to take a break.  Perhaps it’s about time, Louie and I have a talk about rationing that time out, vice asking for it RIGHT away, after coming home.

BTW, how’s everyone doing?  ANYBODY HOOOOME????

 

Recipe Share : Chris’ Hot Chicken Salad

With a post drought well in effect here on my blog.  I figured I’d share a pretty good recipe I came up with.  (Not like it’s an earth shattering recipe in cooking)  

As a parent whose got the opposite work schedule as my wife and daughter, it’s pretty hard to balance chores family time and responsibilities.  (Which is ultimately where my lack of time for here comes in.)

So most of my work at home is done in the kitchen.  (Usually, she doesn’t get home until 6ish, so dinner has to be done!)  This has been like this for about 8 months.

Since then, I’ve gone from making boxed Hamburger Helper meals and Stuffed Peppers to entries featured at your local mom and pop diners.  Honestly, I’m kind of shocked on how I’ve grown as a cook since then!  

Anyhoo, I’ll stop rambling and get down to what may be my own creation!  Or at least my own take on a nice bowl of chicken salad!

CHRIS’ HOT CHICKEN SALAD (Serves 4)

(FYI, yeah this is my first name…so yeah SPOILER!)

Ingredients

1 Green Pepper

1  Zuccini

1-2 Dozen Cherry Tomatoes 

1 Yellow Onion

Extra Virgin Olive Oil (enough to generously coat 2 large skillets)

Dry Dill Weed (4 tsp)                          

Italian Seasoning (2 tsp)       

Poultry Seasoning (4 Tbl spoons)   

1.25 lbs Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast

2 Tbl spoons Lemon Juice

4 tsp Kosher Salt

6 tsp Black Pepper

1/2 Bottle Hidden Valley Ranch Dressing (or any ranch dressing)

1 box Stove Top stuffing (Chicken, Turkey or Savory Herb flavors)

4 Tbl spoons butter or margarine (for stuffing)


INSTRUCTIONS 

Dice all vegetables leaving them semi-thick, for the exception of the cherry tomatoes.  

Cut the chicken into quarters, lightly salt and pepper, generously coat with poultry seasoning.

Cook stuffing a medium sauce pan (Which can be done anytime really.) Just follow the directions on the box.

Begin heating two large skillets with Olive oil, making sure to coat the pans well.  Sprinkle in Italian Seasoning into the coated pans.  Heat them on medium heat to warm the oil.  

Add in chicken into one pan, then use the other for the veggies.

Cook chicken 2 mins on medium, turn and repeat until turned 5 times.  (Obviously until there is NO PINK)

Cook veggies until they soften, but DO NOT sautee and make them mushy. Lower heat for veggies and turn off heat for the chicken.  

ADD 2 tsp of black pepper and 2 Tbl spoons of lemon juice to VEGGIES.

Drizzle ranch dressing onto the vegetables the same way you would a normal salad.  

Plate the cooked ingredients veggies, chicken and a 3/4-1 cup of stuffing on top.

Rest assured, this is a delicious and health conscious dish even a 4yr old would like.  And here the proof!!

See!!!!

Anyways, hope you enjoy this as much as we did!!  

Be sure to LIKE, REBLOG, COMMENT AND SHARE if you did!!

Before I go, I’d like to thank you guys for all of the comments, follow, shares, etc throughout the year and a half I’ve been writing.  YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!

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Sorry to burst everyone’s bubble on this…but I have to postpone my NES Madness entries and blogging as whole for a little while.  I’ve realized over the past few months, my personal time has been getting less and less.   It has been a constant balancing act with spending time with my family, doing overtime shifts or writing to you guys.

Recently, my content has been thinning out more and more.  So I figured that this NES Madness would’ve been a great way to give you guys some fun things to read AND watch.  However, time has not been on my side and I’ve decided to SLOWLY trickle out my entries, from now on.  

For those who don’t know, I work 48-54 hour work weeks, so when I finally get a break to do some writing.  It either comes to me or not.  Recently, I’ve had the inspiration.  But my body doesn’t quite agree with my mind and I’m left tired most nights.

I know, it’s wonderful when I finally get the sparks to write, yet everything else in life is playing against that.  Although, so I’m very fortunate; I have a beautiful and supportive family, in good health and have a warm home to rest in.  For now, I’m going to use time as an advantage with my writing.  Maybe that will work better.

MGSV – Inspired Share

Over at the The Well Red Mage, I caught a share of Metal Gear Solids ending song.  “The Best is Yet to Come.”  Which is essentially my life motto.  No matter what, I feel life can be harsh, happy, tough, confusing.  Most of all its precious, because “the best is yet to come”, and life has sweeter memories to give us.

Even in our darkest days it can get better.

In an inspiration from his post, I’m sharing the EPIC Donna Burke, “Sins of the Father”.  Which truly captures the whole vibe that MGSV was.

It was EPIC, yet bittersweet, due to Konami (the company that produced the game) and Hideout Kojima’s (the creator) mistreatment during the development of the game.  Back when I finished this a year ago, I KNEW DEEP DOWN something was wrong with Konami.  (Turned out I was right…which you can read HERE.)

Anyways enjoy the song!

So this is what it’s like to feel defeated…

Finally, these goddamn elections are over…I voted…and lost.  Before anyone from the red side of the fence.  I don’t need to hear an “IN…YOUR…FACE” comment or anything about “how” we’re going to “Make America Great Again”.   I…SIMPLY…DONT WANT TO HEAR…YOUR BULLSHIT!  I want to hear details Mr. Donald J Trump, now 45th President-elect.  Put you billions of money where that loud mouth is…AND LET’S HEAR IT ON JANUARY 20th AND AT THE STATE OF THE UNION!!   There…I said what I needed to say.

Once I got over the results, I took some time and really sat down to take it all in.  Almost as if someone very dear had died and it really didn’t hit me yet.   I talked to a few folks, some that were Clinton supporters and others on Trump’s side.  Yet I really didn’t see where see light, in what has transpired now.  All I see is negative results and uncertainty…I’ve only heard “it’s gonna be great!” like a billion times and I was never a believer.  Trump is going to shake things up, except I feel what he’s shaking, he believes is a bottle of champagne is actually a flask of nitro-glycerin.

I’ve lifted my head up, but only to barely above sea level.  The future is very uncertain and will be more unpredictable than ever before.  Perhaps, I need to look deeper, talk with Louie and think some positive out of Trump winning this.

I guess it’s going to be a one day at a time process, for now.  Maybe we’ll see if this country is worth living in, once there is a clearer picture taken by that loud, orange man in the red hat.

BTW, two things BACK TO THE FUTURE got right!  THIS and hoverboards…

 

So, is this zero or 1 for 2 this year!

Period of Numbness

Was fairly bored and I came across this article from People.  If you have a spouse, family of your own or children, I’d ask you take the time to read it.  HERE

 

No person should ever have to go through loss like this. I commend the guy for really opening up to everyone.  Imagining the pain that is that, every day she’s been gone…

If this would happen to me or Louie, Jesus, I really can’t imagine!

“Locker Room”

The second “debate” came to a close tonight.  (If that’s what you’d call it!)  Trump and Hillary went back and forth just like the last debate.  It seemed as though, none of the them ever answered ANY of the questions said on the floor.

Normally, I’m not a person to want to jump into politics and controversy.  But I’m gonna this time.  WHY?!  Because the message has to passed as much as possible.  What message is that??  I’ll get to that in a bit.

First, was the debates last night.  I’ve lost all my vested interest in Donald Trump.  It’s DONE.  With every response he gave or question answer he gave, just turned out to be smokescreen.  When he was asked about taxes, he never gave numbers or detailed plan proposals.  In regards to health care, he talked about repealing Affordable Care, yet there was no real plan proposed about breaking down the high-priced medically competitive market.  All he did was mentioned it, as if he’d just Wiki’d it and could’ve said, HEY THIS CAN BE FIXED IF I’M PRESIDENT!

So much of what he put out there last evening seemed so disenfranchised with Americans. Sure, I can he his empathy for the poor, middle class and crumbling urban communities. But he hasn’t shown us the numbers, proposal details about getting shit done that matters.  At least when, Hillary gets up there, she gives numbers.  It really baffles me, because he should be ALL ABOUT NUMBERS.  After all, Trump is a master at making profit out of his failures.

He thinks he has a battle plan for taking care of our military, national defense, public safety.  But not once have I heard of him talking about whom his advisers are, which generals or strategists he’s been consulting with or police commissioners he’s talked to.

However, TWO things hurt me the most of him and his campaign.

First, his slogan, “Make America Great Again” is sad in itself.  Conservatives truly believe this can happen through him, I don’t.  America needs to bring its resources and production back in our country.  Jobs and our economy are our biggest problems.  Before, I believed that he had the right idea.  Bring the jobs home and re-invigorate local industry.  Second, focus on getting better funding for states that need to address their issues with crime in their major cities.  Focus on NATIONAL DEFENSE, not foreign defense.

BUT, that changed once he began to talk about “eliminating ISIS”.  (Which, mind you, it’s impossible to wipe out an IDEAL once it’s been planted.  Also, they’re EXTREMISTS and RADICALS, keywords there.)  Then we get this goddamn wall, and all it leads to people smacking or scratching their heads.  Which are all PIPE-DREAMS and only lead down one path WAR or EVEN GREATER POVERTY.

Worse of all, people are going to cast their ballots for him, simply because he is a conservative.  But what they don’t get is that, he is a REACTIONARY WITH A SHIT TON OF MONEY.  Let’s face it, he’s revealed his true colors to us.  Before, I didn’t believe it.  What I thought, was that he was simply doing this as a WIN-WIN strategy to gain more investors in his properties and ventures OR win the presidency.  Some things convinced me otherwise.  But somewhere deep down, I knew he wasn’t capable to be a leader of our country.

Think about this, if you’ve followed him long enough.  Can you expect him to.

A) Run a cabinet effectively

B) Build bridges in Congress to pass the laws needed TO CHANGE our country.

C) Remain calm as a direct representative of country in front of all the different countries in the world.

D) Execute his plans, in order to keep peace and stability in our country and not have it result in mass casualties or worse.

E) Prevent our debt from expanding

F) Not cause massive rifts between minority communities all over the country

G) Not get us into a conflict that will undo our country

SECOND, is this whole “locker room talk” audio clip running rampant.  I’m not repeating the shit skid-mark that it is.  Put simply, I NEVER as a MAN who has sense of respect for women would ever say that to anyone else.  To me, that sounds more like a self confession in order to gloat about his exploits and how powerful Trump is.  Rapists do that; they boast in order to display power, the abuse and shame women for gain control and exercise discreteness in order to continue to further their fantasies.   (FYI, I got the degree in Behavioral Science, so I know.)  Trump may have not done these things in recent history. But he has had a lifetime of getting what he wants, when he wants it.   NO WHERE IS IT ACCEPTABLE TO SAY THOSE THINGS.

This is coming from me, a man whom has had racy encounters and done some kinky things with my lifetime partner and previous relationships.  We all have our turn ons and fantasies, but there are some that are never intended to be a reality.  But I think for someone with that much power, almost anything can be made reality.

Lastly, I’m not a supporter of Hillary Clinton.  She’s a paid-for bureaucrat.  If and when she becomes President, there probably will be the same of the last 8 years.  She is the establishment and will only continue to further the interests that line her pockets.  But I firmly, believe that our country will be in a better situation under her leadership, THAN WITH TRUMP.   Why?!  Because the city streets won’t be fire or countries that allied won’t begin to work against us.  Simply, we don’t need that shit….period.

Our future is determined by the choices we make, not every choice is the ideal one.  But we can make them so that we can move forwards and learn from our mistakes.  Hopefully, in a few more elections our population will wake and smell the coffee.  Politicians are excellent liars and the only way to read through them is to either vote the wiser decision for our future or vote for a better third party.

 

My true fear!!  

Funny story.  Most people face their fears in situations that either place them in near-situations or situations that are beyond their ability to flee.  Mine was the latter, nearly four years ago.

I was working as a front clerk at a local pharmay and was not at the register at the time.  One of my  co-workers knew about my isues with…clowns.  

Just my luck that get a guy in his full clown outfit at the checkout.  All I knew was that I froze.  I didn’t know what to do and before I almost had my manager down my throat; his 60-year old wife came over.  

She seemed pretty ordinary and I then began to realize that the clown was just a man.  A 70-year old man, in a clown costume.  I’m still not over my fear, but athe least I might stand a chance of living; should I ever get in a fight with a clown.  Just sayin’